Well I never got my call within 14 days from the hotline, I keep forgetting to call them back and bitch about it.

Tippy (as predicted) isn't going to do anything even after I emailed Uncle Rich. I guess God didn't send Seth to me afterall, he sold me out and is now ignoring me. I don't really hold it against him. He's brainwashed.

I emailed Uncle Rich again but for some reason it's stuck in my outbox. I've been bad so I'll send it Saturday. I have 4 days off after Saturday.

Things are worse since Jerdie went to see Tippy. If J is the only one there it's bad but not like when they both are. Even though I think Ben started the scrap, J is flaming it. So when Ben is alone she doesn't do anything.

Whatever, I'm sick of it all.

I need to finish filing with EEOC and get this cleared up.

So yesterday I was supposed to be in the Concord Classic 5k. I'm really disappointed that I didn't go. When I woke up I had such stomach cramps that I thought I was sick again like I was two weeks ago. (The doctor took blood tests and didn't find anything)

I was more than a little afraid that I would get sick out on the course. This race doesn't have bicyclists following the racers and no one out on the course that could get me help if I needed it.

I've decided that for the most part, my health problems are work related. I had a bad time on Friday with the bitches. I decided yesterday while golfing and talking with Jodie and Cheri that I have to do something about the problems because they are obviously escalating. One thing I need to do is: Plan for the worst and know what I'm going to do as a response.

I guess I really didn't expect any of them to ever talk to me again, let alone stand at my desk while I was on a call and scream at me. I underestimated what ever is going on. I'd planned out (to a T) what I will do the next time Bitchup pulls me in the office and asks if I'm going to commit suicide but this I never expected. Plus it was just so stupid that (once again) I was flabbergasted.

No more. I called the hotline today and made a complaint. (they asked what I wanted the company to do, I said move them or me and since Bitchup would refuse to do that at a minimum I wanted her drug/alcohol tested because I think she's on something)

Then I left a message for Lisa who ended up coming in to talk to me. (that ended up as an incident) She said to hold off on my email to the new CEO, I told her I would, for now. At that point I decided to wait a few days to see the fall out from the report I made before I took it up the food chain.

Before he left though Ron asked me how things were going. Well they had all acted out after Lisa left so I was feeling crappy and went to talk to him. Evidently, Bitchup had left him out of the loop. Surprise!

I told him about bitch screaming at me on Friday. I also told him that the next time (there had better not be) it happened or that I felt threatened that I would: end my call, go to my car, call the police and press charges. After the police and union President secured the premises I would return in order to send an email to the CEO and then I would leave and not return until the situation was permantatly fixed.

He's very sympathetic and I think he actually thinks he can help. I tried to tell him he can't but he's confident. I'm not sure how long he's been with the company so maybe he knows something I don't.

I called the union VP from the car on my way home and asked her to come in on Tuesday to talk to me in person. She might want to include the new chief steward but I'm going to have Lisa instead. I'd rather have someone I trust and who knows the whole story than a hater who doesn't know me but knows the others. In the message I left, I said that she would probably find out on Monday what was going on but that it was my off day. I wonder if she'll call or email me tomorrow? I doubt it.

I drove about 5 more miles after that call and had to pull over to the side of the highway and throw up. I was gagging the rest of the 70 miles home and once here I've been throwing up all evening. I took my medicine but even that didn't help.

I had planned on going to Menard's and getting the paint because it looks like Joe is done priming but I was too sick. I probably should have called him to see what time he's coming over tomorrow. I had also wanted to mow the lawn today so that tomorrow I could work on the strip by the road and plant petunias there. I'm hoping to feel better in the morning and doing everything after Jade gets here.

I still feel queasy but I'm going to try to get some sleep and feel better tomorrow.

I'm also going to run. I need some stress relief. I want to go to the pool too. Hmmm. Probably won't have time for everything. Oh well we'll see.

Waiting on Karma to kick some ass.

I got my new driver last Thursday and the hybrid on Monday. I saved about 8 strokes on Wednesday league. With the driver I'm getting about 20 more yards but instead of going straight I now have a fade. On the first hole my ball took off then faded near the end of the row of trees. Where it ended up I don't know. We never did find it.

The hybrid is better. The balls still go straight and about 15 yards or so farther than with my 3 wood.

Jodie and I went to Hankerd Hills today with Cheri and Travis. Little kids are so funny. Cheri had to keep telling Travis not to kill the ball. He hits it like he's playing softball. Jodie and I were calling him Earl Jr. after his dad.

Cheri can really smack the ball. I think girls that have a softball background do better. At least that's my excuse. I hit a good ball but I just don't get the distance everyone else does. My mom even outdrives me.

I need a little more practice lining myself up to play against my new fade but I really like this club. The ball sounds different and really takes off. The hybrid is a cool club too. I miss hit a few balls but not as many as I usually do.

The greens were superfast (we haven't had rain in a few weeks) and I ended up with some penalty strokes but I'm happy with my final score, and my new clubs.

Today was the Concord Classic. I was entered and really looking forward to being in it. I asked for the day off weeks ago. Then when it came time to wake up, my stomach and head hurt and I thought I was going to get sick again. I ended up not going and sleeping until after 1pm, even after going to bed early.

I hate feeling like I wasted a vacation day, but I'd feel worse going then getting sick out on the course. I'll probably feel worse tomorrow when I see the results and find out that I might have done well.

I swear it's work that is making me sick.

I've decided that I'm going to call the ethics line tomorrow and put in a report about the harassment and that Bitchup has had since May 4 (when she was told) and hasn't taken care of it and that it's escalating. I think I'll send another letter to EEOC and also mention that I suspect drug/alcohol abuse to be a factor. After Friday I dread going to work tomorrow since I know there will be fall out. I need to take my digital camera to work to document anything.

Today my Mom stops over to drop off the key so that I can go get Jade after going to the doctor. I didn't hear her come in then I hear (from a dead sleep) "EQUINOX, there's water all over the basement!!" What?!!!
So I go to the basement, evidently Monday AFTERNOON when I did a load of laundry, (I'm lazy and didn't go put it in the dryer or do another load...well technically I'm sick too) the hose broke and water was running FULL BLAST for probably 18 hours!!

Ugg. 2007 is not going well. Except on the plus side my basement will be VERY, VERY clean.

So far Richard (from Servicemaster) says it will be over $500.

Well Richard left two of those HUGE blowers like Meijer puts in the entryways to dry things out. Luckily the basement isn't carpeted. There are just big pieces and a fake oriental rug in the laundry room. He took all of those with him to clean at the shop. I have to get rid of my cardboard boxes from 7-Up (distributors) that butthead got that I put all my recycling in. That I'm upset about. But I asked him if I could let them dry out and he said no it would mold. He left some boxes so I could go through junk. At least it'll force me to throw things out. What a mess.

The insurance adjustor never did call back today. I have a ton of work to do tomorrow. I should probably call Emmons and see how much a dumpster will cost.

Oh yeah and the doctor says I have nurovirus. I've been off work since last Thursday.

Looks 1,000x's better. Just some in hair line and scalp. So happy!!

Chest not coming along as well. Kinda yucky.

So I haven't posted about my "adult acne" lately. I had my 30 day follow up a few weeks ago with the doctor. Not sure if I wrote about it. If I did, this will be a repeat.

I was supposed to use the steroid cream every day for 3 weeks, the every other day the last week. Well I couldn't find my appointment card and hadn't written it in any of my calendars so I was still using it everyday when I got the reminder call. I wasn't doing very well with taking the pills though.

Most of the scabs were cleared up except around my temples and scalp. The doctor said that the cream thins the skin so its important on my forehead to use it only every other day. But my scalp it's ok for everyday. Which is good because it's so stressful at work that I pick at them all the time.

Now my temples are getting a little better. He says I'll have to keep taking the pills.

I took these pictures today.

Last week my psychiatrist put me on Xanax. It worked ok the first two or three days, now I can't sleep. I have to work tomorrow (had today off and called in yesterday) so I took an Ativan even though he told me to stop. I had to, I haven't slept in 4 days.

I'm getting quite good at cooking tofu. Today I had leftovers from dinner last night. I had bought fried tofu which I cut up in to small cubes. Chopped the rest of the cabbage, some broccoli and pea pods. The rest of the bottle of sauce and a bit of water. I put a plate on top of the pan wanting to wilt the cabbage but the steam made too much water, so then I took the plate off, turned the flame down and cooked it too long and it got kinda burned. I had also added pepper. Not a good idea. But it was still yummy. The already fried tofu has a good consistency but didn't absorb as much flavor. I'll probably buy it again and try marinating it before hand. I need to buy the press and seal saran wrap to use with kitty face because the stuff from the one side (usually grapes) jumps to the other and gets that taste on them. I don't like my stuff to taste like the wrong thing. Yucky. Kitty face actually holds a good bit of food. And I get a bunch of compliments on it.

Work sucks by the way. We are sooooo crazy busy. I had another crying jag today. My manager yelled at me then when he asked why are you crying (why do boys ask that? like they don't know it's their fault)I'm like because you yelled at me. No I didn't. Well that didn't go over well and I just let loose and opened my mouth and crap just came out. I did notice that it got really, really quiet in my area. hee. Of course later they were teasing me. I would laugh at me too. But I would also be scared. That's what I can't figure out. The people that live after a worker shoots up the place always act like it's the biggest surprise in the world. But how can it be? Are people just clueless? Or just don't want to admit that there might be a real psycho in their midst? Then it's too late and then what? Hmmm..